Retiring from 'sad' on twitter
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title: "Retiring from 'sad' on twitter"
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- opinion
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Before moving to San Francisco an older friend had given me the name, which I
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carried as the title on my first business card: "Angry Young Man." I had a
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tendency to practice "anger-driven development" wherein I would stay up late
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hacking away, determined to make something less shitty. I don't think I have
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ever truly been an angry person, so let's call it "playful cynicism." I used
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this energy to develop two characters on Twitter through which I could vent my
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frustrations and make jokes about day-to-day stupidity in the tech industry. The most
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popular character and certainly my favorite:
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[**sadserver**](https://twitter.com/sadserver) and its relative which I added
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later on [**sadoperator**](https://twitter.com/sadoperator), are as of today
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effectively _retired_.
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When I originally developed both of those characters, I was spending an
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inordinate amount of time maintaining systems. Like most who work in
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infrastructure and automation, I tended to be overworked and underappreciated,
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or at least I believed I was.
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@sadserver was the dry, sarcastic, and irreverent personification of the
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servers I was trying to work on. Often times the jokes or retorts came from
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real life situations where I had inadvertently screwed something up, and
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@sadserver would playfully mock my frustrations. As I developed
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the character further, it took on a life of its own. As my career progressed, I
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spent less time working directly with infrastructure and more time working in
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the no-man's land between Operations and Development, an uncanny valley of
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hilarity which further fueled @sadserver's discontent and lamentations.
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I fancied myself as a "Dev who could speak Ops" and created a complementary
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character @sadoperator. Unlike @sadserver, @sadoperator was meant to be a real
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person. Somebody who frankly, is sick of your shit. A year or two after I
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created @sadoperator I started to burn out, but didn't know it at the time. The
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character became more cynical, saying many of the things I was thinking during
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meetings-with-no-end, responding to the news with sarcastic eye rolls, and
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becoming increasingly combative towards "management" and "dev" who existed as
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foils for the stories I wanted to tell. @sadoperator was a caricature of my own
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internal thought processes. Perhaps not the most healthy outlet, but for quite
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a while it continued to make me laugh.
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As I recovered from burn out I continued to create content for both characters,
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but to do so I would have to indulge in cynicism even if I was really having a
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great day. I would look at something happening on twitter, I would let my eyes
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lose focus and put myself into a negative frame of mind; often times I would
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even get a chill. Soon enough I would arrive at a witty retort or comment to
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share with the tens of thousands of people following one of the two accounts. I
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felt almost like I was vacationing in a place of despair, all for the sake
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giggles on the internet.
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I'm no longer angry like I once was. And I have actively worked on my own
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mental health, working to recognize the caustic effects of sarcasm and comedic
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cynicism. While I can still laugh at the tweets written over the last many
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years, I do not delight in writing them anymore.
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It's time to retire.
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---
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It has been difficult to decide what I should do with these accounts. Years ago I
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considered selling merchandise featuring some of the tweets. My first idea was
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to take [this tweet](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/558022551369043968):
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> _it's not "corruption", it's a database index REMIX._
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I thought that an 80's stylized MySQL dolphin standing at a couple of
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turntables would have been perfect, but I could never find the right designer.
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I eventually gave up on the idea of monetizing any of this silliness and
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instead decided to ride it out, enjoying it while it lasted.
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Much of the other content I still am very proud of and is worth _something_ at
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least to me, such as my [Twas the night before
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Opsmas](https://gist.github.com/anonymous/8109885)
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poem which I wrote in one sitting five years ago, lounging in rented cabin
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during a truly wonderful family Christmas vacation.
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Or [the short story I
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wrote](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/910227437983645696) after mistyping some `curl` incantation to a
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misbehaving server:
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> _A connection is established on port 80.
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>
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> After a moment, four-bytes are received.
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>
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> h
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> e
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> l
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> p
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>
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> I terminate the connection.
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>
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> Bad request._
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The praise for that story from one of my own favorite accounts, [Micro SF/F
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stories](https://twitter.com/MicroSFF/status/910234372380479488) was
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exhilarating.
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Another dystopian [short
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story](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/981555646419017728), inspired by
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the Google fall from grace and their "do no evil" motto which still plucks at
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my heart strings
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> _They set out to make the world a better place.
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>
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> Building more technology, more automation.
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>
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> Optimizing it all, for sake of the machines.
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>
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> Finished, the people had all gone.
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>
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> Surrounded by their machines, they felt alone.
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>
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> The world had become a better place.
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>
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>
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> Only not for them._
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There are [years](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/523519779470991361)
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[of](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/174554682621042688)
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[tweets](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/1024045823384907776) [which](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/1011652439303262208) [still](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/598598544296050688) [make](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/880112111279497216) [me](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/825126193544388608) [laugh](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/735135582997909505), and some still make me [sad](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/727879508984877056).
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Twitter is an interesting medium in which to tell stories, and I thoroughly
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enjoyed the challenges of telling stories or making jokes within its
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constraints.
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In the end, both of these characters served primarily to entertain myself and
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some of my colleagues, a number of whom didn't know who was the man behind the
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mask. It was always hard to hide a smile when somebody would share one of my
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tweets in an internal work chat. "omg too real!"
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Indeed :)
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---
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I don't plan on deleting the accounts or selling them off to anybody, instead I
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am releasing all the content I have ever created on Twitter for these two
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characters under the [Creative Commons Attribution-ShareALike
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4.0](https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0/) license.
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* [**@sadserver**](/files/sadserver.json)
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* [**@sadoperator**](/files/sadoperator.json)
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Please share, remix, or use these however you would like. If you use these
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tweets to sell something or make money in some way, please consider donating
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profits to the [Electronic Frontier Foundation](https://eff.org).
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---
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I'll leave you with [this
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tweet](https://twitter.com/sadserver/status/674264875259052032), potentially my
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all-time favorite dark-but-true tweet.
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Please don't take things too seriously and do try to find reasons to be happy.
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